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Huuu~ 
You should say I never felt this relieved, or this pain. It's a good thing to know the truth, letting all my doubts solved finally. But there's a price to pay. I have already expected that to happen. I just didn't know it went so far. Far away from what I thought. If I knew, I should have thought even further. Still, it's too late now. 


You can say I never really thought I would put into a puppet position. I didn't even THINK about the first alphabet of it. But again, I'm really disappointed. How many years have I been in this puppet position? You know none better than me right?

Ever since that day, where I hit my head on something hard (I'm not sure what's its called, but theres a piece of hardwood sticking out of that thing) I felt myself went crazy. Like, seriously crazy. I don't think I can control what I did. Theres a lot of things I never done before, I did (not the part where sexual intercourse applies, I still have my rationality). 


For the first time I went through my borders and spilled almost everything in my mind. They were meant to be secrets. Don't ask why, it just happen. There were also times I write something that I shouldn't have written. But through that, I felt that I have really let all my feelings in a go. I wanted her to know everything. But not all. 


There were also times I did something crazy. Like what happened yesterday, only a few people know or should I say only two people knew? I didn't know what I was doing, but out of curiosity and a little bit of love emotions, I did. I know I shouldn't but I did. I am sorry. I hope that you two will forgive me, no matter how disappointed you are I'm really sorry. I know perhaps saying sorry now wouldn't wipe that "data" in your mind because you will think that I knew this will come but I still do it. Trust is important, I know. Everything is too late now, I know too. 


There were also times I tend to forget something. Ever since that incident where I knock my head on that hard thingy, I felt that my memory gotten worse. I can't remember what I want to remember. For instance, I want to bring my calculator but the next day (or the next 5 minutes) I forgotten everything about it.  And when I reached my tuition centre only I remembered. 


I'm afraid this isn't the end. 


No, I'm no trying to give reason for what I did. I'm actually glad that I let go of my feelings, just in a unsuitable way.

McDonalds Prosperity Night 2011

I was pretty late to post this, but late is better than never! So on 11 of January 2011, my friends and I went to McDonalds Pandan Mewah for the Prosperity Night event. Only the invited ones are able to go inside, the one not invited will be told to leave. Feels like a VIP haha!


My sis, Cheok Ming and I went around 7.45 and by the time we reached there weren't much people. 

the registration port

notice that the entrance is closed

We settled down, done registration and so on. But there were no signs of the Prosperity Burgers yet (yeah, I was PRETTY hungry back then) 

didn't know she was that kind with the fellow crews from other outlets

now..which one is me...?!

the most talked scandal partners

P.S did I mention the guy in the photo has fabulous muscles? No? He works out!

representative from Sunbeam. Thanks for the..choir? XD

Before I proceed with the another photos, have you EVER entered McDonalds and view the interiors? No? What a lucky fella you are!

the fellow mothers and fathers were briefed before going in

no, there's no difference if you see it from the inside, indi jones's wife

you're doing great at posing sir! 

he look like hes constipating

*slurrrppsss*

the place was built for maximum 3 peoples horizontally, sorry if you can't fit ya!

There's a performance by the crews of McDonalds too. They performed none other than the hitz song, Nobody by Wonder Girls! If you want to see their performance, just go to this link here!

Last but not least, the manager oppas and noonas photo. *Did I use it correctly? XD*

Kak Iera, Kak Ain, Bang Khai, Kak Lida (BIG BOSS xP), Abang Rahami, Bang Bob, Kak Marziah and Kak Pal.

The reason why I bolded Abang Rahami's name is because he was the hero that night. That night, after all the guest went back at around 10, one crew went mad. I think it's because another crew go and usik him. Then he go rage and seem like he kena rasuk. Seriously! If we took the video of him you will be shocked. He screamed, and wanted to beat the other crew (I think its the one who usik him) but luckily Abang Rahami was there to hold him. Remember I said that he works out and has fabulous muscles? This time, he put a use to it! He one man solo held him with both of his arms, that kena rasuk crew couldn't even budge! Then Abang Rahami read some kind of doa loudly beside his ears to calm him down (magically it worked, for a while after he stopped reading). Abang Rahami kept on calling him to sabar and sabar then when he finally settled down a little, Abang Rahami took him for a walk at the car park there. Then suddenly he go main kung fu. Lei Siu Long pun keluar. Seriously!! Then some more got silat (according to some people la, but I didn't saw). After that he also like walk around and finally came back to his senses and left. Then after like a few minutes, police came. I think it's because one of the manager called 999. They explained what happen and then the police left after a while (No, without getting free drinks and foods HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA) After that my mom and dad also came, and I went back.

Such a delightful night I would say. Thanks for everything!

Have you ever..

Have you ever goes back to your iTunes Music Library and listen back your old songs? If you did what are your feelings? Feel familiar right? 


That is what I did just now. I opened iTunes and see around. I was surprised the "Music" tab was there XD (if you have iTunes, you get what I mean)  So I go and click it. Play one of my songs. When I first hear it (All about you - McFly) I suddenly though of Tzu Yee, seriously! The song I downloaded back in....2010. It was a great song actually, and if you noticed its the Invincible Youth ending song, every episode! 


So now, I went through the list of musics. Now, 21 Guns - Green Day! What it reminded me..Ahh! I remember my times last year playing SA with my bunch of mates. I was skyping that time listening to this song. The person who sang this song while skyping is none other than - Matthias Lee! His voice sounds so bad you wish you does not know what a voice was! Let's not recall the bad memories again...21 Guns end already! 


Now, Ru Guo Ni Hai Ai wo -  Guang Liang! Ahh. I remember. This song Lik Hui called me to download via Limewire that time. I think two or three years ago. That long it has been, huh! Oh well, I'm skipping this! 


Oh yeah, Replay - IYAZ. It reminded me of SAing with skyping again =.=" cause seriously, I do like to open music while killing people (no I'm not a maniac) AND not to mention..Matthias Lee also did sang this...in the skype. He's a sound polluter, seriously. 


Ahhh...James Blunt! YEAH, You're Beautiful! What could be better than this song (English lar, korean lain pulak cerita XD). Yeahhh, you're beautiful it's true! This song means a lot to me. I used to sing this song (alone) back then when the kpoppy virus haven't spread to me. Nice song!


Last song, before you get bored of reading this post. Whatcha' say - Jason Derulo. This song AGAIN. ALWAYS SANG BY MATTHIAS LEE AND THIS WAS THE WORST SONG HE COULD EVER SING!!! =.=" It's the same as Replay and 21 Guns. Play SA while skyping and listening to this song. 


Do you want me to link the songs above? Nah...I do''t think I need. You want listen you do the job yourself! So what I say in the next sentence you shall ignore it! ha ha!


Alright I did! Oh...have you missed out something? ;P

Facebook WILL end at March 15th. Stay tuned!

PALO ALTO, CA –Mark Zuckerberg announced that Facebook will be shut down in March. Managing the site has become too stressful.

“Facebook has gotten out of control,” said Zuckerberg in a press conference outside his Palo Alto office, “and the stress of managing this company has ruined my life. I need to put an end to all the madness.”

Zuckerberg went on to explain that starting March 15th, users will no longer be able to access their Facebook accounts.

“After March 15th the whole website shuts down,” said Avrat Humarthi, Vice President of Technical Affairs at Facebook. “So if you ever want to see your pictures again, I recommend you take them off the internet. You won’t be able to get them back once Facebook goes out of business.”

Zuckerberg said that the decision to shut down Facebook was difficult, but that he does not think people will be upset.

“I personally don’t think it’s a big deal,” he said in a private phone interview. “And to be honest, I think it’s for the better. Without Facebook, people will have to go outside and make real friends. That’s always a good thing.”

Some Facebook users were furious upon hearing the shocking news.

“What am I going to do without Facebook?” said Denise Bradshaw, a high school student from Indiana. “My life revolves around it. I’m on Facebook at least 10 hours a day. Now what am I going to do with all that free time?”

However, parents across the country have been experiencing a long anticipated sense of relief.

“I’m glad the Facebook nightmare is over,” said Jon Guttari, a single parent from Detroit. “Now my teenager’s face won’t be glued to a computer screen all day. Maybe I can even have a conversation with her.”

Those in the financial circuit are criticizing Zuckerberg for walking away from a multibillion dollar franchise. Facebook is currently ranked as one of the wealthiest businesses in the world, with economists estimating its value at around 7.9 billion.

But Zuckerberg remains unruffled by these accusations. He says he will stand by his decision to give Facebook the axe.

“I don’t care about the money,” said Zuckerberg. “I just want my old life back.”

The Facebook Corporation suggests that users remove all of their personal information from the website before March 15th. After that date, all photos, notes, links, and videos will be permanently erased.

Source

Now now now, don't think that this might be a false news that is lingering around the net. Its true. Just how true it is, I'm not sure. You might just want to get yourself a twitter account if it is true afterall.


If Facebook were gone for good, there is always pros and cons. To those who think social networking is somehow a spreading virus, then you are partially correct. In my own opinion, Facebook had not just found me my old schoolmates (I believe most did) but also some other friends I met outside which I don't have their numbers. So I could contact them through a medium which that medium is Facebook. Its like you met a lenglui but you didn't have her number. You can always try to search her Facebook profile and add her as friend. Not that its my first time anyway! Hahaha :X


Through Facebooking, you are also able to reach out your informations to your friends easily. You can invite your friends to some events through the "create event" option in Facebook. They will be have a short notice of your event and from there they can RSVP to that event. Not to mention, fanpages. You know how many fans from all over the globe wandering around the fanpage for more informations about their idols? I'm one of them, literally! sometimes I do check allkpop.com What else...AHA! Facebook users are able to cure their time-sickness with games. Cityville (=D), Restaurant City, Cafe World, Texas Poker et cetera. My mom, who was just a Facebook user months ago got addicted with the games she played. And before I know it, she was busy playing her games instead of busy nagging me! That's a GOOD THING, RIGHT? 


But, no matter how good something is there's always the bad part of it. People and I mean BAD people will tend to misuse the advantage of social networking and using them as lethal weapons. They tend to gather informations about someone and presumably use it to stalk that particular person. Especially those people who write out their phone numbers (Yes, I've been through one before) and those that uses an apps called 4square. It's no surprise if you got kidnapped by someone. 


In my case, I do think that Facebook has more pros than cons but my brain could only do so little. If you have more, why don't you share it on your own blog and probably link me? =D


Update


According to here, "Facebook won't be shutting down anytime soon".

Kursus Kepimpinan Ketua Tingkatan & Penolong Ketua Tingkatan & PSS & PRS

Before today, I thought that I knew how to lead but actually I don't! Leading skills itself has a lot of skills to master and knowledge to explore. After what I learned today, no, I still don't know how to lead XD. It really takes a lot of time and effort to be a good leader, and what I mean good is really good. 


From what I been through today, the time was mostly given to ice breaking activity and some games. We were divided to few groups, and I managed to be with Yee Yan by coincidence and Azly too! The rest were strangers...(other than Mei Yan XD). And, theres always the I-give-you-majong-paper-you-write-your-group-name-and-stuffs stuffs (two stuffs, yes. No wrong) right? So our team name were

NO, not Banjaran Nakawan but its Gunung Nakawan instead. And no, ignore those guys in the photo. All I want is your Banjaran Nakawan. You all are useless for me. 


The instructor were the one said the title of our group name must be Gunung xxxx, so don't ask why is the name so weird =.="


So now, the real lecturer were only talking for like 30-45 minutes before we actually went to rest. The time was very very, VERY short. He didn't quite deliver all of what he can say but he did gave us 5 letters to leading basics.
- Amanah
- Disiplin
- Bijak
- Berhemah
- Berani


There's still further explanation about all the 5 basics there but you really really don't want me to write it here. Not that it's long, but you're reading a full page of text here!! 


So after the break, we explained our mahjong paper and so on. Let's skip this shall we? Then we play this game, where you need to fit your group (18 peoples in ours) in a piece of newspaper. Sounds familiar? YES! It's the game that we play last year in camp. When I heard that I thank god I went for last year camp. But the other teams weren't stupid too. Only one were unable to get the idea but almost all got the solution and started. We were the last because we were cutting like snails! WHO WAS THE ONE THAT CUT SO SLOW ONE?!?! me..hehehe!




But then Mei Yan took over halfway. We were still the last. When we open the newspaper that time, aiyak die liao. why so small one?!?! I thought I did it correctly. Then we quickly find alternative solution to "expand" it. In the end, berjaya jugak. Everyone can fit in but the newspaper were too thin it went broke off. Thats also because got people kacau. In the end, no one succeeds. Some of the groups was because kena kacau by people then the newspaper ter-koyak. why in the world they do so?! Its because the instructor told them to. But his intentions were actually trying to test them. It was all part of the test and we're the subjects. The instructors and lecturer wants to know whether that they will do what the instructor told to. But actually the instructor didn't want them to kacau us. It's complicated, just accept whatever you can accept, OKAY?!

them,they = the groups that lost

Then we play another game called. Lubang ajaib!!! The title sounds funny....right? XD Lubang!!! What we do in the game was, you clench your left fist in a circular shape and put it on the right knee of your left side person (duduk bersila) and then at the same time, the right person will be doing the same thing to your right knee because we're sitting in a circle! Then your right hand only need to point out your pointy finger and masukkan ke dalam lubang of the clenched circular fist. Once the instructor count till three, you have to both pull your finger out and at the same time clench your left fist! Isn't that easy?! Actually its not, it's doing two things simultaneously and I often forgot to clench my left fist because I concentrate more on escaping. But still I managed to be in the last...7? XD If got time then we play during PBSM or occasions like that. 

You want it to be any longer? Nah, I'm tired already. Next time I'll put up some photos! Alright? XD

"panting"

These few days, in specific yesterday and today I feel dam tired! I don't know why but right after I came back from school I feel like I'm physically exhausted but my mind is still consider very "fresh". It sames goes with last night. I recall that I was on the bed on 10.30, but I roll and roll and roll till about around 11.15 and I couldn't even sleep! I tried all my methods available that moment but still, none worked. 


So I went out to have some water and walk around a little in my sister's room. About 15 minutes later I went back to sleep again. This time, its a little too hard for me to sleep but I managed to pull it off, luckily! 


is this a sign of insomnia or....aging?!

New Year

Yeah. First of all, Happy New Year. 
Like I said previously at the party just now, if I've done something wrong this year (2010) to you, please forgive me. Most of the time I didn't mean it but theres a lil' part of it that means I really meant for it XD. So in this 2011, I hope that I will do more things in the wrong way so that I could speech of more next year! 


Ciaos, amigos.